The next step is now

I will admit that I am one of those people that holds their breath waiting for the next thing in life to come. I am never really in the moment of today and living like that has made me miss soo many things. I am almost done with my 3rd year of college/first year at OSU and I have spent so much time wishing for it all to end and for life to begin, but looking back on it, what did I do with all of those moments that I should have treasured and lived as if they were the only ones I would ever have? When I am sitting in my rocking chair when I am 85 I have ZERO desire to look back on my life and say "well at least I was always looking forward to the next step..." and if I do, I give the person in the rocking  chair next to me full permission to slap the crap out of me. I don't want to spend my life looking forward and planning, I would rather look down at that current moment and let life push me to wherever is next. The day to day life we have may be crap but to just skip days or chunks of life is wishing away parts of the only earthly life we have. You remember the saying you heard in high school, "These will be the best years of your life" well I think that is wrong, every year should be the best year of your life because they are YOUR years of your only life, and only you know all the laughter and tears that happened in them, and if everyday you are the best you, then focus on that instead of worrying about the next step (which may never actually come).

Keep it real,
Kayla